train tracks

i walk alone on the train tracks its the middle of the night no one knows im gone no one care im gone i hear a train in the distance i hope it comes my way this is the first time ive been happy in a while knowing death could be near my life is not worth living im living in hell its only the thoughts of death that make me happy the train is getting closer i can hear it my heart is pounding im getting excited this could be the night a big smile stuck on my face i see the train its headed straight for me i dont know what to do should i just stand in the middle of the tracks should i lie down what should i do now its right in front of me the bright light blinding my eyes i start to panick do i really want to die this way i cant but those thoughts keep coming back to me im worthless im a failure i dont deserve to live i need to die i have to die so i lay on the tracks waiting for the train to hit me .... it seems like a long time where is it it was just here i sit up and look towards the train the train went down another set of tracks it cant be i need to die tonight why cant i die these thoughts are torturing me i guess ill have to wait another night to end my life for good.

i walk alone on the train tracks its the middle of the night no one knows im gone no one care im gone i hear a train in the distance i hope it comes my way this is the first time ive been happy in a while knowing death could be near my life is not worth living im living in hell its only the thoughts of death that make me happy the train is getting closer i can hear it my heart is pounding im getting excited this could be the night a big smile stuck on my face i see the train its headed straight for me i dont know what to do

should i just stand in the middle of the tracks should i lie down what should i do now its right in front of me the bright light blinding my eyes i start to panick do i really want to die this way i cant but those thoughts keep coming back to me im worthless im a failure i dont deserve to live i need to die i have to die so i lay on the tracks waiting for the train to hit me . . . it seems like a long time where is it it was just here i sit up and look towards the train the train went down another set of tracks it cant be i need to die tonight why cant i die these thoughts are torturing me i guess ill have to wait another night to end my life for good.